Fasting

I am hungry.

I have been up since 6:15 and now all I want to do is eat! I went to work and got dizzy. I am weak. Thats the point. I'm not supposed to be comfortable. I'm supposed to need God. I find myself being really irritable and annoyed with small things because I'm hungry AND my one midterm is today too! How great. haha.

So the venting is done.

Suggested readings are Isaiah 58 and Psalm 131

True and False Fasting

58 “

6 “Is not this the fast that I choose:
j to loose the bonds of wickedness,
to undo the straps k of the yoke,
to let the oppressed [2] go free,
and to break every yoke?
7 Is it not l to share your bread with the hungry
and bring the homeless poor into your house;
when you see the naked, to cover him,
m and not to hide yourself from your own flesh?
8 n Then shall your light break forth like the dawn,
o and your healing shall spring up speedily;
p your righteousness shall go before you;
q the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard.
9 Then you shall call, and the Lord will answer;
you shall cry, and he will say, ‘Here I am.’
If you take away r the yoke from your midst,
s the pointing of the finger, and speaking wickedness,
10 t if you pour yourself out for the hungry
and satisfy the desire of the afflicted,
n then shall your light rise in the darkness
and your gloom be as the noonday.
11 And the Lord will guide you continually
and satisfy your desire in scorched places
and make your bones strong;
and you shall be u like a watered garden,
like a spring of water,
whose waters do not fail.
12 v And your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt;
you shall raise up the foundations of many generations;
you shall be called the repairer of the breach,
the restorer of streets to dwell in.

13 w “If you turn back your foot from the Sabbath,
from doing your pleasure [3] on my holy day,
and call the Sabbath a delight
and the holy day of the Lord honorable;
if you honor it, not going your own ways,
or seeking x your own pleasure, [4] or talking idly; [5]
14 then you shall take delight in the Lord,
y and I will make you ride on the heights of the earth; [6]
z I will feed you with the heritage of Jacob your father,
a for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.”

Psalm 131

O Lord, my heart is not s lifted up;
my eyes are not t raised too high;
I do not u occupy myself with things
too great and v too marvelous for me.
2 But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
like a weaned w child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me.

3 x O Israel, hope in the Lord
from this time forth and forevermore.

**Calm your soul by hoping in the Lord forever.

Psalm 69:10 says "humbled my soul with fasting"

Joel 2:12 - return to me with all your heart, with fasting, weeping, and mourning

...i'll let you know how the rest of the day goes!

So now I'm at school. Its 3:40pm and I ate Pretzles. haha. I don't feel further from God at all. I know its about the process and not the result! He is beautiful. I need Him. I am nothing without Him. Jesus thank you for today. Thank you for fasting. Thank you for teaching me to humble myself and use fasting to be BELOW you. God thank you for being soverign. Thank you for getting up. Jesus thank you for being KING so I can live and see you again. God I pray this day is yours and every thing I say/think/do/and touch is for you and your glory. God let me know and see that you are ALWAYS and forever and that my purpose here is soly to love and follow you. God this is your movie. I am one out of a billion characters and my 2 seconds on film needs to be FOR YOU and about you and making you look like the king that you are!

Thank you God for life.

Thank you God for wisdom and direction.